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I have been a cripple longer than I can remember (you may cringe at the word, but I am one, so I can say it).
I have been bed-ridden, wheelchair-bound, a crutch walker and then back on the plain old feet. I have been hospitalized with other similarly afflicted individuals as well as ones with other traumas...including head traumas, spina bifida and GSWs (on those pesky Bloods and Crips).
The thing that I don't really understand is why do I stare at people with problems? I am not blatant, but I'll check 'em out. Like what's wrong with that dude. Or, what's her problem? How can I be so one-sided and not want people to gawk at me, but yet I can gawk all I like? Maybe I did suffer some head trauma...